My memories My life

2010-04-20T03:18:00.001+08:00

I'm just praying hard that it will end soon...stop asking me about my brother's issue.

11 January 2010 - A fresh Start

2010-01-14T00:25:00.007+08:00

The day of my first marketing job and i really appreciated that & especially to someone my manager thank you for the encouragement of your meaningful & useful words as well as quotes. If u're reading this post i hope u can hear me that i had digested all your words into my heart & mind. I have a love & hate relationship with January. Why? I love it because it symbolises new beginnings, new opportunities as well as new dream to aim. I hate it because it reminds me of how time files and all the missed opportunities & possibilities that i didn't act upon in the past 12 months. Yet, strangely i approach the first month of 2010 with the optimistic attitude to face the real world. No more excuses No more laziness No more procrastinating Don't look back, look forward. I had learned alot things through 2009 so i gonna be strong & with my positive attitude. Everything happen for a reason. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

2009-09-06T06:16:00.000+08:00

2009-09-01T03:49:00.000+08:00

been very lazy to update & i think my blog been having virus can't log in at all! Think i will update soon let me go check wad happened arghhh

Do you know the meaning of FRIENDS?

2009-07-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

Friendship is co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more people. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge,Esteem and affection and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the TRUST that someone or something will not harm them.

Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating the following on a consistent basis: the tendency to desire what is best for the others, sympathy and empathy, honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth, especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart, mutual understanding.

2009-07-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

Out of sudden i was down but again up. I set positive mindset if posisble but somehow the feeling is sucks as somehow that particular someone bring back those bad memories. I think no one can understand how i feel. Yes, you can say me why always so negative & emotional but is not i want is the heart that controls my feelings it goes. Used to be very super extreme negative because i used to have a perfect picture like how i going to have my life in future but everything just gone & dissapeared. Even until till now i do can't forget about it. Anyway, i'm fine. I will stay strong again to be a happy-go-lucky girl. Because i tell myself i keep still hang on there nobody is gonna help me to climb out of this shadow of darkness. Lucky, i have nice friends around who very care & concern every lil stuff of my problem i believe those who are very close to me jolly well understand my whole entire stories...

Met up with my maggie mummy again for our fav sushi session & girly talk i love that! Have a cam-whoring session too shall catch up again with her & gonna meet up my god-daughter one day! Because i am still coughing so better not to find her or else i dun want to spread any virus or sickness to her.

The path to happiness

2009-07-13T23:37:00.003+08:00

Recently, i read this book called " The path to Happiness". Just wanna share with anyone who read my blog i think those words are really good.

Setting a positive motivation the first thing in the morning is very beneficial. When we first wake up, our mind is very subtle & delicate. If we set a strong positive motivation at this time, there is a greater chance of it staying with us and influencing us throughout the day.

If you have a problem and you can do something abt it, there is no need to get anxious abt it because u can actively do something to solve it. On the other hand, if there is nothing u can do to solve it, getting anxious abt it is usless - it won't fix the problem. So either is the way you look at it, whether the problem is solvable or unsolvable, there is no sense in getting anxious or upset abt it.

2009-06-29T19:59:00.002+08:00

sick been falling sick now & then. I already stop going out since last sat till today i still sick. I think is the virus outside. Better tell myself drink more vit c. No mood to blog so i gonna drink more cough syrup & sleep... nite everyone

Party girls doesn't mean they are bad girls!

2009-06-21T03:37:00.009+08:00

Is the Not that place matters, is who you hang out with

Really a fun night with all this xiao didi haha. Me, nicole & kelvin are like overage but then we just behave young at heart to suits this group of young kids. Double O have cheap drinks & good music. WE also saw this cool dude who look like the tatoo artist from Miami Ink!! Nicole's was soo in love with him haha too bad he MIA & cant't find him.

i like this pic the most! so natural! haha yanzu didi was behind to squeeze in his head the extra cute one. credit to damien!

the Victory sign always the common pose but it looks cute & make us HAPPY!

again Victory part II haha. Poor nicole's cam was soaked & that's cause the effect for it.

finally met up with yanzu didi - haha he said i keep calling didi he felt so uncomfortable.

This was taken last week. Friday also can be ladies night. Love the girls! And finally get to see deniece & nicole! I love girls night out.

as usual my fav gf going clubbing with her

One of my fav girlfriend, deniece.

It was a fun night. But was abit wasted as never get a chance to dance with deniece i think she was busy with her stuff. Afterall me & nicole still enjoyed ourseleves. We never get wasted.

2009-06-16T19:06:00.011+08:00

Anyone want to taste my dessert??? ( First trial )

Ginko Beancurd Dessert 腐竹薏米白 - Good for the complexion!

ingredients:100g barley100g beancurd sheets (the neatly folded variety; the scrunched-up looking ones are for savoury dishes)

125g gingko nuts (can be less...depends on personal perference)

4 pandan leaves, rinsed and tied into a knot

2.5L hot water

1 Eggmethod:Soak beancurd sheets in cold water for about 5 minutes/ til soft.

Rinse barley and put into a slow cooker.

Add hot water, pandan leaves and beancurd sheets.

Cook on high for 1-2 hours depending. (If using the stovetop, simmer for the same amount of time.)

Add ginko nuts and sugar.

Separate the egg yolk and egg white and slightly beat both.

Add egg yolk first and allow the soup to become cloudy before adding the egg white.

Swirl the soup in one direction so that you get 'egg flowers'/ strips of egg white.

Serve hot or chilled

Enjoy this dessert it really helps to promote for good skin :)

Saw this Hair Mist at watson so just wanna try it out. It have a fruity scent to cover your hair no matter where u go. And is cheap $3.95. Grab it!

Going to start story book from fiona - hee now i understand why she name herself in msn Domestic goddness.

Monday no bluess... Hee you know why? Because my boss treat us to dinner! I didn't have my breakfast & lunch i only have fish soup but after that i was starved & once i heard my boss wanna treat us to dinner as he been waiting to challenge Christalle regards about who can tolerate the Hot & Spicy soup. I am so excited and just anticipate to go for it too!

located at tiong bahru level leve 3 if i not wrong beside sakae sushi. According to my boss the standard had drop. Thou i never try it before i also felt that yup the HOT level is not up to my standard yet.

here comes our food. In e end i failed the challenge as i was too full. Aaron won it & he was the 1st to be done too. Is all right next round we should try Jerry's buffallo wings gurantee no one can beat it!

Happened to pass by this Japanese snack shop so everyone were attracted to it & purchase some cookies & snack to makey ourseleves HAPPY MONDAY :) I got myself Greentea poker & in the end it wasn't is a chocolate stick coated with greentea. Overall it still taste good.

A reward to myself for my hardwork for this month. I had almost done to complete my carebear collection. I just love seeing carebear. It Just make my day SMILING HAPPYILY like a kid =) hee

Pizza treat from One 15degree Marina Club.

2009-06-15T01:47:00.015+08:00

With baby emily on her 1st stay at ritz carlton. She so in love with it same as i do. I still remembered 3 years ago i stayed here before with him celebrating our anniversay. Say the truth, i really love this 6 star hotel alot. It was the most memorable one. Beautiful scenary plus sinful breakfast & dinner buffert. Loving it! Couple should go have a night stay there. Now they are having some promotion. Go check it out!

Oh man i love this super comfy bed. I bet u definitely fall asleep within 5 min.

Do you want a bathtub like this at home?

i like the view behind so beautiful

very engross with my fav salmon sashimi

see my satisfaction face haha

This is 2 weeks ago finally met up with nicole.We went to chill at our fav place keppel bay. Have some beer & food. Girls talk with good ambience + music.

my favourite beer

i think polaroid pic is so cool! It just bring back those memories.

when can i have my own private yacht? dreaming......

Keppel bay is a nice chill out place to go.

cam-whoring time

2009-05-31T00:06:00.006+08:00

i love this monster to the max! As is freaking cute! It look like a Giagantic hamster to me & in the end it turn out to be a butterfly monster!

i think when i pin my fringe will make my face slimmer this is what aaron told me also. Damn i seriously need to go exercise & diet!

Meet up with my buddy shaun to catach Monsters vs Aliens. Damn freaking hilarious show. LMAO!! Through out the show we just keep laugh out LOUD! 4 out of 5 star.

After that we head to chill at east coast this breeze bar is a good chill out place for ppl to love hang around along sea side. Yeah me like as is windy & yet u can enjoy good beer plus free ktv & pool. It was a friday night & surprisely never see me heading to zouk huh? Yeah i really prefer to chill... talk cock sing song and let out your feelings and problems...said whatever you want to say. Me & buddy really enjoyed our night as he desperately lack of beer! Let's meet up again buddy!

Pumpkin & me - she look so sian

like suffering from depression... actually she just very tired.

she just don't give a damn.

is my brother who give her the new pillow.

All right i going to watch my gossip girl and going to have a good rest too. I soooo addicted to movies & drama series now. I don't know why i think i am back to my own self. Maybe is also i need to take care & accompany my grandma but is good. Going to learn to cook more food...

2009-05-24T12:50:00.012+08:00

Super nice truffle fries using truffle oil. So sinful =)

Taste awesome. 9/10 is very tender for this lamb

Red wine to goes with the lamb

Their signature skinny dark ink pizza. i give 7/10. It's super crispy it don't taste like pizza more like a huge cracker with the seafood topping.

i think the plate looks cute.

I have a wonderful night with my lovely friends & buddy to be there for me when i am so down & stressed. My grandma becoming more demanding & i can say she suffered depression as she keep thinking & talking about negatives stuffs. Hopefully she can be more positive again. Sometimes i really can't stand she & my mom nagging as both just can't comminicate to each other. Haiz. My lifestyle have change and i not like in e past where i can go party anytime i want. Is good also as i started to get bored to club nowadays i rather spend the time to movies & chilling out with my close friends. Girls talk plus i can just say whatever of my problems out to release the stressssss.

still as pretty

Mother of 2 and she don't look like one.

This Girl is going to married soon. So blessful & happy for her =)

A great outing with the girls. I love class gathering! We went to have dinner at crystal Jade xiao long bao at taka. Have nice lai mai la mian & after went to chill at pierside. Girls talk but after awhile all their boyfriends came & fetch them. Too bad one of the girl MIA & is uncontactable. The other girl, say she's sick. So in e end only me,janice,christine,nicole & elaine attended. It was not bad at least we get to catch with each other. Thanks to christine who is the organiser. Shall meet up more often.

2009-05-20T23:42:00.003+08:00

I love Yakult! I am a Yakult's lover since pri 1 till now is still my favorite drink. Is a must after dinner as i often suffer consitpation. I love especially this 3 flavours. I remember a doctor told me is really good for our digestive system. Sometimes i can consume up to 4 bottles per day.

My favourite cleanser foam. I been using for 5 years and it really cleanse & brightens up my complexion. Compared to other high end brands, this really works well for all asian skin type. In fact, asian skin should use products from korea & japan. Alot my friends told me that too.

This shampoo look familar to you? yes is my idol jackie chan's shampoo. Don't get me wrong becuz i so crazy about him & purchase the shampoo just because he is the ambassador is because Maggie recommend me that the shampoo really good. The result turn out i have smooth & silky hair. Oh yes the smell it's stink man! Because it really used real natural chinese herbs that's why causes the smell to be so strong. However, just use ur favourite conditioner & u can cover up the smell :)

2009-05-17T17:16:00.008+08:00

Last night i finally get to destress myself. Lucky my brother is around & allow me to go chill with my friends. Meet up with shaun & one of his fren to Alps Cafe. It was a fun night as our main motive there is to get drunk as both of us are very down & stress! Guess what? In the end we play games & dice after 4 jugs of beer still we are high but not drunk but tipsy LOL I have a great night with my buddy shaun. He keep teasing & disturb me. I really laughed like a mad girl wahahahaha! Can't stand the two guys of their hilarious action & words from their mouth. And furthermore i think we're the most noisest group in the cafe! opps! I did enjoyed myself thank you my friend & sending me back home i know u're very vexed again but hope everything goes well soon :)

their nonsense!

i looked so tired here guess must be lack of my beauty sleep =(

too engross with his new whiskey

After that it closed at 3am. So we till want to continue to drink. Went to st james was so damn boring! Nothing much we head home as i need to reach home on time as my grandma need me to shower her.

Today is a boring sunday. Woke up cook for my family with 4 local chinese food. So that's about it. Nvm, i looking forward on this coming wed to siyi's bday! She inviting me & nicole to her house & have dinner. Yeah gonna have a fun night with my gals!

2009-05-14T19:48:00.006+08:00

I cooked some dishes for my grandma. Simple meal like spinach, tofu + mince pork + ABC soup

All are healthy food as i need to take note of less salt less sugar & oil when i cook.

i'm realised as the day goes by she becoming more & more demanding .Every 5 min asking me or my bro to do this & that. Buy her favorite tissue paper in fact i have 20 boxes at home. Boiled hot water as she claims that no more water but i have 2 kettles of 2.5 litres. Buy more eggs as she say no more in fact there's more than 20 eggs inside the fridge. Indeed she is super typical kiasu singaporean.

No choice i'm need to be strong & i tell myself to be strong. Family stress + work stress. I'm really very exhasted. I really seriously need a gateway to a short trip holiday. phuket or bali or hk or KL i don't mind anywhere just need a good break!

This is what i bought for mother's day. Yummy fruity cake from a cake shop near my place.

2009-05-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

The past 2 weeks i never go club or shopping. Basically the daily routin of work,eat & take care of my grandma & sleep.

Woke up at 430am change diaper for her
Rest
Woke up again at 530 shower for her
Rest
Woke up at 630 cook breakfast for her
Rest
woke up 730, prepare to go work

I never blame anyone & never felt anything because i know my grandma is very sick need my help. This just reminds me of how she take care of me when i was baby, child & teenages. Now i should do my part to take care of her & shower her with care & concern. I'm don't want lose her so fast just like my dad.

Lucky day time my brother who is looking after her. Night time is my shift. Everything just reminds me of Money not enough 2. All my relatives exactly like in e show!!! FUCKING know how to talk only no action! Once a year visit her once during chinese new year might as well don't come!!

Very pissed!!

I tell myself i will be strong!

i feel so sick at times & wish i could just leave here forever

2009-05-09T23:40:00.004+08:00

my mom just like to nag,unhappy here & there. PMS & mood swing. Complain here & there. Dislike my grandma at times. My grandma very agitated nowadays due to her sickness & also keep nagging non-stop.

Yes although some of my friends say everyone have problems but mine is just like keep repeating & repeating....

i wish i could leave here soon

All the good old memories

2009-05-03T15:52:00.014+08:00

A picture of her first time clubbing at mos

A picture of my fav childhood fren till now

A picture with her sexy darling

A picture with her fav gal bday

A picture of she is soooo slim

( oh mine better slim down now!)

A picture of her when she can be freaking happy lying down on e road to pics

( i remembered the time was 430am & i played until 630 & woke up 730 for work! )

A picture of the most unglam moment!

( but yet so fun! )

A picture of her when she don't feel like having tat long hair anymore.

A picture of a laughing chubby baby.

I love my weekends

2009-04-26T23:38:00.009+08:00

chill with baby emily at keppel bay. It was a nice chill out session on sat night rather than clubbing. I love that! Girls talk & photo-session lol :) More to upload.

Met new model, Jason

Charity Golf Event at Warren Country club.

My lovely colleagues.

Winner will have a btl of wine & opener.

My First & Ever Wine Tasting

2009-04-19T20:07:00.007+08:00

Vintages 2002, 2004 & 2006 magnum worth 300 euros each to be given away. One of the lady she actually from my table won the prize. Congrats!

busy behind the scene & andy say come come take a pic. See he left out fiona behind she must be idiot andy nv call me.

Aaron & Fabian busy decanting the wine. Almost done so i never help much but i did help up in the reception area with decorating of brochures & the stickets for the door gifts.

This is my table no seven. I will be sitting with the guests.

Here is the list given to be tasted. Vintages 2006 2004 2002 2000 & 1996. Among all i like 1996 it taste very smooth.

inside the cab rushing to goodwood park. Intially i was wearing not so formal so my boss actually said is better to go home & change can save money also rather than buying a new dress true also.

It was a good experienced. Met a teacher from my table & he was a nice guy to chat with & even told me about his wife, the wine he kept & even knows more than me! Told me about the different vintages & wine he tasted & kept. I think is time for me to keep updating & learn.

Finally we meet up

2009-04-17T00:24:00.011+08:00

i love green tea!

After so long with our very busy work we get to meet up again for dinner & chill. I did enjoyed my dinner & it was awesome. Thank you :) He will be in the upcoming show for Polo boys. So gals please stay tune for thehunks & cute guys in e show.

i start to fall in love with this beer so much! thanks to buddy for intro me this new 1664 blanc.

As you can see from alot pics that i'm a BIG fan of japanese food :)

It was a nice chilling place for japanese food. Very relaxing sitting down & looking at the river

Finally we get to meet up after so long as we're very busy with our hectic life. I miss u very much too much mummy maggie :) Glad that we catch up alot things on that day. Share alot unhappiness & happy moments of our stories. Let's meet soon to ktv & sushi!!!

Happy long weekend

2009-04-13T01:29:00.007+08:00

Hello i'm your new teacher. Miss Chow :)

New fren, Fiona love her cute action in e office

My dear gal in the new hot club in town

christalle & me

haha i love this pic!

Finally we get to meet up each other & the world is so small!

Been clubbing for like 2 days and is very tiring. Catch up 2 movies, fast&furious and also sniper.

Not bad after all as i really enjoyed movie session. Chill out at town & clark quay. Tried new beer from carlsberg named 1664 Blanc is a French beer very nice smoothing citrus taste,

Gonna work hard for the upcoming days...Earn more money or else gonna eat bread already...

Life still the same for me lucky i really have afew nice friends around to be there for me & busy. Somehow i felt lost at times just don't know how to expain though i looked happy & satisfy but deep now it wasn't.

Don't wish to think too much just hope that special someone can really touch my heart & to enter in my life.

Really wish to go holidays with my love ones but always failed :( Always no chance at all is either no one acc me or i don't have the money to go.

anyway used to it...

Perhaps that's my life fated.

gd nite & trying to sleep now ZzzZzz

Woman & their money

2009-04-05T15:56:00.003+08:00

Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus.

I came across this article & my point of view which i totally agreed too.

Women complain about problems because they want their problems to be acknowledged, while men complain about problems because they are asking for solutions. I think nowadays more women are becoming very independent. I can say even financially independent enjoys freedom, high self-esteem and a sense of security.

Do men regard women to be their atm machines? ( And if so, are men really that stupid as to behave like one?) Doesn't such thinking cheapen women & insult men?

Well, for sure there are women who treat men primarily as providers of material comfort and who measure a relationship's worth based on their partner's economic value. However, i think is better not to reply on men. Instead, strive for financial independence. It is safer and more satisfying:)

Depending on a man for money does nothing for your self-esteem, puts you in a disadvantaged position in the relationship, & might even mean an impoverished old age down the road.

I'm not trying to say that women shld be so uptight as to eschew gifts from a man or that cant expect to be spoilt with presents once in a while. Offcourse is wonderful to receive presents from the man you love. You feel special because it shows that he wants to make you happy :)

The issue is less complicated when a single woman like me. I have no choice but to be independent.

Many girls grow up with a tai-tai fantasy. They dream of snagging a millionaire and living the good life without having to work.

But the reality is that rich, eligible, loveable men who will love and marry you are very very hard to come by.

I think we gals should go out, work hard, earn their own money & safeguard it well. Then come to lean times or good times, pay cut or not, you can shop any time you want whether you're married, divorced or single.

April loving

2009-04-04T15:36:00.004+08:00

lovely tulips really cheer me up! :)

a new member to the carebear family!

Thks to Mr.D

Nicole went over my place to chill & gals talk :)

She love my pumpkin too!

she can't smile anymore but she wish to...

2009-03-21T17:17:00.005+08:00

i teared and i dun wish to say anymore.

is there any guy can able to take care of me when i down?

When i need a shoulder to cry?

Listen to my problems i face?

Be there for me no matter where or when?

My buddy told me this:

you're not emotionless

you jus haven't found that part of urself hiding in a dark area

maybe because someone isn't there to guide you out of it

takes time

but don't see urself as emotionless

someday someone'll walk out of it with u

jus not now.

祝我生日快乐!

2009-03-19T22:08:00.010+08:00

My Favorite 2 in 1 thin crust roasted duck & hawaii pizza

my lovely gifts from siyi & deniece. Thks siyi the chocolate is very nice it really melts my heart hehe :)

with zach he really looked like Tony Leung Chiu Wai.

my brother keep ask him play the role of 無間道 whenever he saw him lolz!

finally the cut cake session hee so excited to make a wish! But see the candles i old alrdy oh gosh!

happy bday gal =D

the cake taste good all thks to nicole.

Miah - nicole's boss

cute siyi - thks for the royce chocolate & lotion u got for me.

And thks nicole for the yummy cookie & cream cake.

my beloved brother

Timbre's boss

I really appreciate all my friends who came down my birthday & the effort to came all the way down 2 times haha. This is my first time so happy as i never really celebrate my 18 birthday as well as my 21st due to my dad. All along i never expect myself to celebrate birthday every year as i think brithday is just a normal day as it significant the day ur mom who carried 9mths in her stomach and finally u popping out. So it shld be celebrating with ur mom and let her know how great is she.

Oh my god! i really old now. Haha and still alot things i want to do & nv yet accomplish soon soon soon...

Afterall, i really wanna thanks to Deniece,Siyi,Nicole,Adrian,Zach & my brother attended my birthday. And the pre-bday :)

i just very upset alot things right now don't wish to say anymore.

i counting down to my bday!

2009-03-09T19:09:00.009+08:00

with my dear gal @ alps cafe a nice cosy ktv cafe

at thai disco :)

I planning to have a small gathering with my lovely frens this coming sat! Hopefully is a wonderful one :) anticipate anticipate anticipate loadss loadss fun & high moments hahaha :D with my love love one

Happy Valentine day to all my frens!

2009-02-15T01:37:00.004+08:00

Having test on vday! Hopefully i score well. Monday gonna be active as in more work coming & also need to run around & meet clients. My mentality now totally change all i want to focus on my new career & really want to succeed i know the following days gonna be very tough for me but i believe my strong determination & also most importantly Attitude!

Met up with one of my ex-colleague is so surprise that he called me up & so he actually brought me to this unique jap restuarant for dinner. The food there is nice & i do enjoyed it. Is just a normal date after that went to look at prawing & fishing. Sometimes this kind of lifestyle is better than clubbing really. Right now, my life will be hectic and due to i just wanna earn more money to save up for a better life in future & also able to travel around the world later part of my life cuz i give up my dream due to my grandma in fact i don't mind. I believe i can able to travel around with my loved ones in future :) All right gonna sleep & fight for it on monday onwards...

self-confessed workaholic

2009-02-10T23:35:00.003+08:00

work & work. My stupid gums is making me very pain till i cant sleep & eat dunno wad sickness i suffered and i gonna stop eating my fav chili :( It keep bleeding too. Tmr i gonna visit dentist! Vday is coming and i didn't realised too anyway is also my ex-colleague, fiona's bday maybe i heading to her bday party. Shall see how & i working on sat as well so maybe will be sleeping all the way. No idea yet just no plans. I really pissed off myself as is farking pain till i wanna cry...

trying very hard to sleep now zzzz...

And maybe i should let myself to start again perhaps or no?

Fun night out

2009-02-08T18:38:00.006+08:00

nicole,hazel&me we did enjoyed our night there :)

addie the friendly owner of taboo

the most insane idiotic guy!

Found a new job and i gonna work very hard for it! This weekend i really felt so sinful as i had wonderful & awesome dinners :) It really make my day. I went to this both shokudo japanese restaurant, the one is pasta at cine the other one at raffles city. I prefer the one at raffles city is called shokudo japanese food bazaar. So if u're a fan of marche u gonna dine there. So after that went to taboo to support paul and met few new frens there. All right got nothing much to blog about i just wanna work out more & restrict my diet from today onwards & work very hard in my new career.

Gd nite everyone!

xoxo

party girl also can cook and do housework lol!

2009-02-03T18:32:00.005+08:00

I know you guys don believe cuz my image always party party party & party! LOL. After my grandma fall sick i been the one who taking care of her like cook for her, doing housechores & etc. I just think cooking is fun & also a form of art as u can play with ur food decorate it and at the end of the day u can taste ur nice awesome food. Offcuz if next time my hubby will be happy if his wife can cook for him :) But i think local guys just think we local gals are idiot dunno anything only know how to work,party & enjoy life but i believe still have nice girls around.

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

2009-01-29T20:57:00.011+08:00

Happy CNY everyone! How's ur cny? Mine was pretty very normal & all i can said is not so fun like in the past due to recession angbao getting lesser and also no one wanna have banluck so this year i cant get to gamble any poker or mj no kakis also :( Is not i a gambler cuz is just once a year. Anyway this year really dead bored. Invited nicole & flex to chill at my hs after tat went party.

Now i understand why so many ppl wanna remind single for so long. For me, i think i really phobia or in other words i afraid of being into a relationship due to all the past failed relationship especially being a third-party, physical & mentally abuse, financially stress & this 3 main point already turn me into depression and that's why i became a clubber start to drink and always thought that by drinking tons of alcohol to ease the pain. Almost with tat bastard for 4 years i nearly wanted to kill myself at tat time of my life lucky enough that i woke up my fucking ideal tat i not that stupid anymore. I still remember at tat time i don't even know where is zouk & he brought me there once but just outside the entrance only & left. Maybe is really him i become like this i become a part-time clubber which is not the old miko anymore. How i wish i could turn back the clock and become a homely gal and wait for my bf to come bk home & eat with me? Who like their girlfriend to club so much? & offcuz my bf is a clubber? Well, just let fate & nature take it cause. I believe one day i can met the right one really my Mr Right or left? LOL

p.s i love this song which i knew it from maggie.

2009-01-25T02:42:00.003+08:00

Went zouk with nicole,flex, henry & thes rest of their frens ytd night & met new frens there. Most of them are friendly . Hmm seem like most of my gfs are happily attached now which is good for them :) My dear nicole also gg hk soon nxt mth and she promise said will give me a BIG pressie haha! Gal rem OK! i will have a gentle reminder before u leave sg! heez. I dunno smtimes i felt lonely & is not about having a bf but is about i wanna feel love again. I wish i can start a new r/s to love someone again & also tk care of someone also but i dun think i can cuz until now not ready yet. Anyway let fate decide & lucky that i have lovely frens around :) I wanna go holiday too but seems like nobody can accompany me go :(

One more day to CNY & i hope everyone can get lot's of angbaossss!! Me too also :D

banluck+angbao+yu-sheng+loveletter= here i come

Wish everyone Gong Xi Fa Cai! Huat ah!

Thank God

2009-01-22T19:10:00.003+08:00

Thank god my grandma is back with us for cny :) This past few days i really like a full-time nurse so the only chance i can go out is when my mom or my bro is around to tk care of her.

Just wanna her to stay healthy all the way...

Seriously until now i not ready to move into another relationship. I think it'll will be better for me to be alone to find out who i am. One day i'll find someone who really ready for me everything.

2009-01-14T01:16:00.002+08:00

i hate visiting to Tan Tock Seng again. HATE IT!!! Reminds me of 2 yrs ago everyday without failed visiting my dad right after my work. My bro & me have the biggest responsibility to take care of my ah ma now. Tmr i will be gg to tts again... I praying very hard she will recover soon!

I know i might look strong but inside is so fragile. I cried just now cuz i just cant take it anymore when i see my ah ma in this state...I just cant control my feeling. In the past i still have my boyfriend around to lend me a shoulder to cry & a listening ear but now no more so i need to be STRONG & positive i cant be so weak alrdy anymore. Different ppl different life. I can said i am not tat lucky enough but i know i gonna work hard for it...just don take things for granted. Buddha got eyes to see. My ah ma will be fine okok....

i m mentally tired & weak.

Thk u nicole, emily & primero who text me & give me the encouragement!

2009-01-12T23:26:00.003+08:00

Today i brought my granny to see doctor and see her inside the cab keep puking make me so heart pain. After that i manage to cook simple dishes like fried egg, fish, veg & brown rice as she have diabetics must watch out for her diet. She have no appetite at all make me so worried for her ask she been vomitting for like the entire day. She cant even get up & eat as her backbone is freaking in pain. The whole day i been busy walking up & down for her and which reminds me of my dad during tat time in hospital. I tell myself i must be strong & offcuz a strong healthy body so that i can able to take care of her.

All my aunt & uncles called me to check on her & ask me & advice me wad to do & not. I somehow become like a nurse which i don wan to as i wan my ah ma to recover soon!!!! Surprisely that i can able to cook for her & take care of her cuz everyone mistaken i just a party-girl who doesn't know anything than party! Anyway action speak louder than words i dun wish to write or type so much alrdy. CNY is coming and i really really hope my ah ma will recover real soon! I miss her food and i wan her to back to normal.

mistakes can be learn & overcome.

gd nite everyone

chinatown to pasir ris park

2009-01-12T15:01:00.011+08:00

The most noisy&annoying guy his name is kim aka pearry

with super petite girl, siyi.

see i told u guys that's why i feel like beat him up!!

This was like 2 weeks back. With nicole, siyi, kim & flex. A very fun chill out place there we just have girls talk & talked everything out...And alot nonsenses & crazy stuff & action we did lol!

2009-01-12T01:13:00.004+08:00

My granny is sick. I prayed hard that she will recover soon. I hope that everything will be fine. I must learn to be strong. Stronger than last time when i take care of my dad when he was in hospital for mths and now is gone. I need to move on & learn. Action speak louder than words. Just wanna remain silence for the time being & work hard for my life...My heart ache when i see her like this.

Growing up

2009-01-11T04:34:00.002+08:00

Out of sudden i really miss old school days. I miss childhood days whereby no worries abt money & alot other stuff etc. Realised really hate growing up and is a process everyone have to go through. My birthday is coming soon in 2 mths time and is like so fast i gg to be 23 oh man! Just feel that alot things i wanna do & fulfilled. Right now i just wanna save up and go for holidays is been super long i nv been to overseas.

Another sleepless night...

new year day

2009-01-07T23:40:00.007+08:00

i love this pic of us we seem so enjoying

haha ben is like getting high!

I was at coffee bean with johnny & the rest of his frens den was so worried abt nicole as her hp had some problem cant contact her at all. Lucky flex found her and thks to ben to acc me to find her. Enjoyed with you guys! And bumped into alot frens there happy:) I wanna go partay with my gal soon!

I wanna work hard & earn more money!!! I wanna go holiday soon i dun care!!! Wanna lead my ideal life & hope it will come true...

Happy New year to me & everyone

2009-01-01T12:46:00.003+08:00

Is a brand new year. I have alot of things in my mind to list down for my new year resolution... From the moment my dad leaves me in fact i should learn from mistakes and realised how life is so precious, short & unpredictable.

Sometimes i don't know how to use the words to explain how this world can be not so colourful if just one incident happened on you. Especially the pain & the scars and memories is there. Now i understand & realised why girls are so easily to suffer from depression. From what i research,

"Besides the fact that woman suffer from depression more often than do men, women often think they can "work through" a depression on their own. They may misunderstand the low risk associated with medication treatment of depression, or else they believe that because they are intelligent hard-working people a counselor or psychologist will be of no help. These mistaken beliefs are, unfortunately, common. Medications for depression may sometimes have annoying side effects, such as agitation, insomnia, or drowsiness, but serious reactions are extremely unusual. Women with a true depression are suffering." I shall overcome these and move on...

New year resolution list:

Find a good job & work hard towards it! (hope is my dream job!)
Save more money
Holiday trips!!!!! Esp my dream vaccation japan,thailand,hk.
eat healthy & stay healthy to have a healthy mind & body.
learn more skills to improve myself
spend more time with my family
Esp my ah ma, mom & bro dun make them worry abt me. They are the most 3 person very important in my life & dun forget my beloved PUMPKIN!
Meet up my dear frens more often who been very long nv get to see them!! Esp maggie & xiuling
More luck plsss...
cut-down on party
cut-down on alcohol
stop emo-ing
learn more recipe
Get my license asap!!!!

i want a brand new 2009!

2008-12-27T23:51:00.009+08:00

i hate 2008 which is nt a good year for me and alot of my frens as well & i anticipating a good coming year for me yeah!

Is so amazing & so many ppl were so surprised i had changed and been at home for 2 days! Furthermore is friday & sat. lol nobody believe nicole & me can be in this way:) anyway we alrdy proved.

I just do some self-reflection life shldn't be keep partying and realised is so meaningless. Clubbing ppl are so fake at times and most of all the guys there just wanna hook on gals and just get number and go. I think is okay to club at certain occasion like i.e. birthday, festive season or some other gals gathering.

Looking forward to watch IP man & follow by yes man with my fav gal nicole:) Thanks for being there for me when i down :)

All right below are some of the pics last tues:) Lovely friends around will just brighten my day!

Now i just wanna meet my lovely true friends esp i miss nicole!!!!!

Time passes so fast and is going to be X'mas!

2008-12-23T16:34:00.003+08:00

Since i was 16 years old i been celebrating my x'mas with my love one thou i not christian but still i anticipating to celebrate every year as i think is a good season to share your joy and happiness with ur loved ones & friends. But this year will be very boring as i dunno what to do? No plans & no gift exchange. And also not in the mood to look forward it. I not going to club and i will change myself to be a better person which maybe other ppl dun believe it but me myself believe i can do it. Other than party offcuz there's alot things i can do in spore.

I guess most of girlies have planned to celebrate their x'mas with their boyfriend.

Well, i think most probably i will be at home..

all right i gonna sleep again. Oh man i think my fav hobby now is to SLEEP! haha!

i cried after i listen to this song

2008-12-22T00:21:00.004+08:00

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you

Flightless bird, jealous,

weeping or lost you,

american mouth

Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat

Nursing my sore blunt tongue

Watching the warm poison ratscurl through the wide fence cracks

Pissing on magazine photos

Those fishing lures thrown in the cold

And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found youFlightless bird,

grounded, bleeding or lost you,

american mouth

Big pill stuck going down

i so in love with Twilight

2008-12-21T23:33:00.006+08:00

Before the movie release i already heard from my colleague that is a super nice romantic movie that is a must to watch !

After watching it i really really so in love with this show as in the story line and the characters in the show and OMG,Edward Cullen is damn super HOT & CUTE! Oh man how i wish i have such a vampire boyfriend and forever he stay so charming and take care of me till the end i died. And esp his eyes already make me go crazy & melted my heart. Apart from the handsome guy the storyline really make it so interested and romantic think all couple definitely will like the show :)

i will recommend all my friends to watch it! Is A MUST okay! :)

Gd nite all! & i can't wait for x'mas thou this will be different as i will celebrating with all my lovely close frens :) However, I will enjoy! Cheers!

tata

i love december part 2

2008-12-19T02:07:00.030+08:00

taken by my baby emily - nice shot :)

Juan - handsome tall model & male host!

kelvin oh his new hip-hop style really very outstanding yeah!

my lovely girl

me love this pic cuz is like we in HK! a very nice vintage cafe in jb. Yup ppl often tot jb is a lousy place but surprisely there's lot's of place to chill yeah :)

paparazzi

let's party in da club! a very popular club in jb and they spin nice R&B song just like in phuture

just 3 of us

love my bff :)

with han he look very fierce here! haha. Chill out at hacienda, a nice cosy bar with cool dj & nice food.

above are all yummy food in jb hk cafe. Is really worth it over there.

lastly at waraku also another nice place for food!

Thank you for all my lovely frens who concern about me & care for me. I really appreciate it alot! I will be strong and overcome it. I really really wish i can fly around the world as i desperately wanna get away here. Everyone had encountered bad memories before, for me i wanna visit & get to knw a new place to erase all those memories. Really hope my dream will come true one day! Give me facts of life and i can said everyone learn from mistakes no one is a failure unless u look down on yourself and nobody will able to guide u along.

i back to singlehood

2008-12-18T22:33:00.003+08:00

i wanna persuade my dream & hope it will come true.

i don't wanna think too much anymore past is past

looking forward and learn from mistakes

life is very unpredictable & u 'll never what gonna happen the next moment.

Do whatever you want and pls don't let someone to lead ur life & control it.

u live once so pls treasure it and do the right thing & enjoyable things u'll like to do :)

thanks for everything & i truely appreciate it!

very sick now

2008-12-18T14:08:00.002+08:00

having high fever + cough + flu think i gonna rest well & tk vit c

thks for all the ppl who concern abt me

i will be strong

2008-12-17T16:12:00.003+08:00

i hate this feeling...and i jus wish to sleep all e way dun wake up anymore! Maybe... I dun wish to get affected but somehow is difficult...

kill me pls...

i wanna escape. Seriously i need to get away from here.

i dunno what to do i so lost...

thks for everything taking care of me

i shall behave & take gd care of myself from now on...

2008-12-16T23:29:00.004+08:00

not in e mood to blog. I simply dun understand at times maybe the main problem lies on me? To alot ppl i just a party-goer yay and no life just party non-stop. But wad is the main reason behind u guys dun know. I think i fated in this kind of lifestyle really seriously. Yes we choose our own life the way u wanna be is all in ur hands. Like some ppl just wearing a mask to meet ppl everyday as in these hypocrite just trying hard to be nice & friendly. I hate it!

i think this is funny

fuck u lah! ( ppl who speaks eng & hardly hear mandarin frm the girl/guy mouth) = ah moh beng or lian

cb lah! ( ppl who speak hokkieh plus mixture of mandarin & singlish) = typical ah beng or ah lian

so in other words is no matter how well u dressed and present urself but once u speak ur vulgarities frm ur mouth that's it u are just a typical ah beng or ah lian hahaha!

some random pics

2008-12-07T23:31:00.017+08:00

haha! lollipop lover

i like the cute cupcakes have the feeling living in a wonderland!

OL miko!

my super black long straight hair

chill out@ wine connection. Nice cheap wine over there :)

i love december!

2008-12-07T17:57:00.015+08:00

i love my brother!

my super comical & hirlarious brother!! He always very enthusiastic! we keep laughing non-stop.

haha they are so friendly & cute keep putting the hat & flower on us!

the girl just knw her through my bro's designer. She was freaking high man ! lol.

Ray

One of our sisters, Jimmy.

Jack aka xiao yong! He miss xiao ping gai! :P

1 year have 12 months & the best month of the year is December! Is the mood for holidays,party,birthday,chill & offcuz x'mas! Still planning how i gonna celebrate... hope is a wonderful one as i gonna celebrate with my gf & the rest of our close frens.

Today i finally make it for the very 1st time in 10km standard charter marathon! I anticipate myself to be walking the entire marathon but to my surprise i still can run & jog all the way till the end! haha! Is very refreshing & motivation after the marathon & i think i gonna particpate nxt year! Now my leg is like freaking pain arghhh i desperately need body massage now!!

went bugis shopping & food with debbie & bf. We all love Ajisen! including my dear nicole as well :) love their ramen so delightful!

Phuture on wed,fri & sat!

2008-12-03T00:50:00.018+08:00

koji aka ah ji

the girls

the guys

haha ryan was drunk 1st not the bday boy!!

saw amber! ha she look diff here

with jiaming

daniel,kelvin,nicole&miko

kelvin

New fren, chloe

nicole&jeff

With gladys (nicole's cousin)

cousin in the club!

look at jeff's freaking redness!

all credit thks to jugs of longisland & AK47

with amos

Quekie!! our sister! we keep tease him on tat nite. Quack quack quack!! LOL!

adrain,ryan&terry on JJ's bday.

haha ryan is drunk!

There's more pic to upload from nicole. Will update again...

Party like a rockstar!

2008-11-28T09:24:00.024+08:00

Party with my fav girlfriend in our favourite club in town :) with gerald,joshua & flex. Is a fun & crazy nite.

with ah ben with his new uniform Zoukout!

we just simply love each other accompany whenever we go club,chill,ktv & food!!

the super quiet guy. damn it i keep losing 5, 10 to him lol!

with zouk's manager

i love playing 5,10! haha gerald keep losing becuz of ME!

ready for extreme TT

another 2nd round...

act cute moments wahaha...

i'm the big bully! :P

super nerdy miko super retarded look

i treat him as my lil bro haha!

hit to the dancefloor...

My dear gal i'm sorry for MIA and i wanna see you real soon okie. Thks for being there for me all the time i really appreciate that :)

i so excited abt this coming FRIDAY!

2008-11-26T15:22:00.007+08:00

yes! This friday 28 nov is my dinner&dance located at pan pacific hotel. I gg to be one of the usher list so quite nervous as gg to usher my CEO to the ballroom. Gonna be fun & enjoyable! After tat will head to zouk to meet nicole & the rest. Oh looking forward this friday yeah!!

here are some of the old pics frm nicole...

saw Meiting outside zouk erm one of the fri nite.

at the beautiful keppel bay. i like the x'mas tree there.

that's about it at e moment. Will update again...

2008-11-21T01:44:00.004+08:00

restrict myself to eat 1 meal everyday. Been taking ducolax & nicole's diet tea really make me go crazy visted the loo for like 5times? I 'm i crazy but pls pardon me as i just want slim down fast!!

Met up with my ex-classmates just now and we still able to click so well...updating what we're doing right now & share all the lame jokes & stories. I love them! Oh man! i miss sch days whereby we often hang out at kallang mcdonal to do our assignments in fact is all the junk food & lame jokes & laughter to keep us accompany! teeheeeheeee :D

Got this urge that i wanna go back to school again!! BUT but but i hate the stress part when the exams is coming! The stress level is indeed more worse than work stress!

shall see how as i need to save too...

Recession!! Just becoz of the US economic i think really can make the whole world go crazy man!! Was dining at Han's at china square, out of sudden this woman in e mid-40s can judge that she's working somewhere nearby raffles place.

Woman: " can spare me a cigarette?"

so chris pass her one.

Woman: " Oh! i used to have a big box of cigarette in my luggage" (In fact, she was pulling her luggage)

Woman shouting: " I have millions in my bank account & now is all gone...gone!"

So now we understand what actually happened to her due to the failure of investment.

Fast cash is easy BUT are u able to accept the risk & consequences??

gym!

2008-11-19T13:39:00.003+08:00

Receieved this call from true fitness & is my bro who put my name under the list. Great! Is the right time for me to go exercise yes!! I desperately need exercise man! I love yoga but seems like no one interested to go with me so is okay i don't mind going alone.

Also dunno why i have this super bloated stomach that make me look like a Bear! arghhhh!

My d&d is coming and i really pissed that i can't find any nice dress to wear! awwwww

Shop around forever21,Mng,topshop,zara & realised is all Winter clothings!! pissed!! I gonna shop again later...and hopefully can style the way i want.

chilling out

2008-11-18T22:08:00.017+08:00

i think chilling is more relaxing & refreshing ur mind & thoughts. Release all your stress & unwind yourself after a long day of work.

the month of octorber

2008-11-18T09:36:00.023+08:00

Me & nicole were heading to boat quay to look for jamie so we just bought some beer + wine to slack at the riverside...while along the way there's these 3 lonely guys drinking there too and happened that they keep shouting: " hi, mind to drink with us together?" We just ignored and don't give it a damn!

Until one of the guy walked over and talked to us den realised he's actually nicole's ex-colleague!!! LOL ! We keep laughing all the way as really so unexpected! In the end up we played 5,10 & frog jumping game with them & the guys keep losing wahahaha

Seriously, i think the guys need hair-cut! lol.

Celebrating Primero's bday on the 24 Oct 08 at the pump room. We gals had so much fun & we did enjoyed ourseleves there. The liveband there sings well & offcuz their special made Wheat Ale beer is a must-try!

haha i dunno wad kind of silly pose is that man! see my wife flirt with other gal!!

but still she's mine! we just feel like kissing each other whenever we in the dancefloor

with sweet debbie. my face look freaking pale here!

the fun-loving producer

haha super cute DEBBIE!!! :D

with the scorpio birthday boy

2008-11-15T12:22:00.019+08:00

is fate

is affection

is passion

is the uncontrollable feeling we have

is the comfortable feeling together

is the connection we have

is the same identity

i think love should be define in this way...

Love me without fear

Trust me without questioning

Need me without demanding

Want me without restrictions

Accept me without change

Desire me without inhibitions

For a love so free.... Will never fly away.

Love is 3/4 dream and 1/4 reality. Problems usually arise when you fall in love with the dream and not the reality. But, yet you find true love when you fall in love with both.

now is 3.18am having a bad stomach ache due to the diet tea...i need to have determination yes i want to slim down. Target 5kg!! yes i must do it! k i better go rest now...

xoxo

i rather have fever than sore throat seriously!

2008-11-14T11:27:00.005+08:00

i dunno what's wrong with me but i can said blame myself for being a chili-padi addict! My sore throat is killing me right now & i don have the mood for anything. Recently been gaining weight awwwww pissed!!! :( i hope my throat infection can recover soon & i wanna lose weight yes my target lose 5kg within 2 weeks!!! i believe i can make it for my d&d and for sake for my image i dun wan to be plump again i hate it to the max!!!! yes gogo miko i assure i can make it!

below are some old entries...

debbie&me at primero's bday@the pump room.

we did enjoyed ourself tat night with lots of our girls talk,beer + martel :)

2008-11-08T13:43:00.003+08:00

Tonight i gg for beyond concert!! weeeee yeahh! will update again with pics and comments about their concert! :)

my new hairdo!

2008-10-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

hahaha try a new image! cant stand my frizzy hair.

Bubye all i extremely tired finally i can able to sleep.

update soon :)

sick miko!

2008-10-21T23:00:00.009+08:00

we went to this stupid chinese restaurant was soo cheated by them 4 persons, 4 dishes = $174!! is freaking expensive ppl tot tat we eating buddha jump & abalone!! No is just normal food like steam fish, veggie, chicken & ee mee! pls dun ever go this restaurant again no wonder is so ulu think we the only customers there! Is opp lunar! pls dun ever enter there!!!

Sam aka zirong (on the left)my 10 yrs primary sch mate!!! OMG! i can't imagine after 10 years he still can recognise me haha! i was like huh chong boon pri?? I was stood at him for like 5 min den recalled he was the one who always p1-p6 like a introvert kid dun like to intereact with us at all! Happend to meet him once again through nicole tat nite at le bar he was asking nicole to ask me this silly question which primary school i from? hehe...me no change! he change alot oh man!

i been keep falling sick like 1 week & think is due to i been eating too much fried food & drinking of wine perhaps some said is heaty some said not. Today my colleagues was teasing me when they saw fiona finally ask her bf out for lunch so eventually this idiotic eric was keep questioning me when is my turn to have a boyfriend?? i was like ya why? i dun need it now anyway & i enjoyed my singlehood now with all my lovely frens around & most important i mention tat nicole is my girlfriend now. So the idiotic eric keep emphasising that yay wait next time they not around to overseas i confirmed alone very pathetic...yaya wadever! the stupid eric always sooo annoying! But somehow he's another comical guy who never failed to make us laugh!

been sucking different kinds of lozenges from grapes flavour to lemon to mint! arghh whole mouth like full of medicine!

spend 52 bucks on the stupid medication...i really hate extreme hate SORE THROAT! and is infection this time round!! this is the 2nd time i visit the doctor and i spend almost 100 bucks! The doctor still mention i have some hormones imbalance tat's why it affects my entire body. Blame myself for dunno how to take gd care of my body & myself. Maybe i need someone who can able to tk care me entirely hahaha! i knw i dreaming again...

And is a very tiring & busy week for me. Got piles of shits for me to clear & follow-up...sigh sigh sigh. No wonder i look so stress...i looking forward for any holiday trips.

thanks for all my lovely frens who care & concern for me :) kindly appreciate it!

all right i gg doze off soon...

tata!

back to the phuture

2008-10-21T03:31:00.023+08:00

partying at phuture once again but this time saw donica & celeste as they both celebrating their mini bday celebration. Happy Oct babies! cheers!

With lotssa of fun-loving frens nv failed to make us laugh non-stop! Gonna change our clubbing place to somewhere more chill & new! Keep gg the same old place also will make u feel bored at times.

can't rem wad is the name of this drink but is taste soooo sweet however redbull make me flyyyy!! LOL

nicole&miko favourite drinks= white wine + peach martini!

my love :)

most friendly waiter goes to Mr ah ben!

Ray who never failed to create laughter :D

with xindu & his fren

jimmy the Polo-T shirt guy! haha

with deniece & alicia

with donica the oct baby

with darren

with jane :) the guy behind spoiled the pic lah!!

jimmy trying hard to be cute!

i like her fair-skin!- My fair lady

xindu,nicole,alban&miko

yes, she my the other love :)

and we always give each hugs & kisses.

2008-10-19T14:10:00.002+08:00

I simply fall in love with this song. Is meaningful after listening & understand the lyrics...Jay chou simply the best & his song forever nice! Reminds me those memories...

你的回话凌乱着

在这个时刻

我想起喷泉旁的白鸽

甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯

我还爱你呢

伴你断断续续唱着歌

假装没事了

时间过了走了

爱情面临选择

你冷了倦了我哭了

离开时的不快乐

你用卡片手写着

有些爱只给到这

真的痛了

怎么了你累了

说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了

爱淡了梦远了

开心与不开心一一细数着

你再不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不等了

说好的幸福呢

我错了泪干了

放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱着

在这个时刻

我想起喷泉旁的白鸽

甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯

我还爱你呢

伴你断断续续唱着歌

假装没事了

时间过了

走了爱情面临选择

你冷了倦了

我哭了离开时的不快乐

你用卡片手写着

有些爱只给到这

真的痛了怎么了

你累了说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了

爱淡了梦远了

开心与不开心

一一细数着你再不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不等了

说好的幸福呢

我错了泪干了

放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了

说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了

爱淡了梦远了

我都还记得

你不等了

说好的幸福呢

我错了泪干了

放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

here goes my friday...

2008-10-14T21:01:00.013+08:00

Partying at phuture again...the same old faces but with the accompany of nicole around i just don feel bored at all! Due to mos closed down alot ppl head to zouk & the crowd is getting more & more...

here are some of pics...

Submarine - taste no difference jus like tiger beer.

my fav girlfriend!

bump into leon! kinda look shy here haha!!

saw tuna! cute name :)

calvin was there too...

valarie - she like damn high alrdy!

never failed always wanna give her a kiss.

2008-10-12T04:43:00.003+08:00

another sleepless night!! Fcuk!!! me want go watch the tattoo show 2009!! Think is damn cool & can't wait to see those foreign tattoo artists & their skills & design! My leg & throat is like getting worse & i think is time for me to really take care of myself well....i want more exercise after the badminton session i think is really fun & really make me feel more healthy.

Tmr is sunday i need a good rest...i want to catch up my drama show & bring my dog for a walk. Dun really like sunday cuz few hrs later need to wake up & work & is monday blue again!

painnnnnn arghhh!

i wanna change.....

2008-10-11T15:48:00.002+08:00

Seriously i think i really need to change my lifestyle...my ah ma keep nag at me & my family worried for me. Think is better to stay out of night life...Somehow i really need someone who can able to care for me & love me entirely i just dunno. I'm numb just numb. I wish i could fall in love again and shower with love. Just very sick & tired of anything & the ppl i seen show me their true colours yay human being can be very fake & mean...cunning to the extend that we never realised tat...& i fall down again is freaking pain now!! ouch! damn it hate it.

i wish i could fall in love again............

however, is difficult...........i just numb

Miko insomniaaaaaaaaaaaa again!

2008-10-09T02:36:00.002+08:00

my body acting like so weird recently dunno why also. Here pain there ache..the feeling totally sux! Feeling like i gg leave this world out of sudden....if really somehow regretted alot things tat i wish to do really! Today have fun at my company lunch they organised a movie therapy to help us to destress & as well to learn how to be positive & optimistic! In e end, they have this short clip of the movie title "Click". Guess wad? i cried. Basically i forever put myself in the show, understand the whole story... Just too involved myself into it...somehow one word to describe me ----> Emotional. I just basically a extreme emotional person so pls dun hurt me or else i will biteeee u!! BEWARE!! HOHOHO!!!

all another insomnia nite & i behave so well tonite....now gg to 3am!! no no i gg closed my eyes again try just try the best i cannnn.......shall blog again on this fri!! zoukinggggg with nicole! And i miss steamboat :P salmon...i love to eat!

gd nite all!!!

Chicken little & my big dog!

2008-10-06T20:48:00.001+08:00

2008-10-04T16:27:00.002+08:00

thanks Ben for photoshop this pic :)

2008-10-04T14:46:00.021+08:00

Our usual hang out to phuture...nothing much to blog about basically is the usual ppl there the same old faces there. But with my darling nicole i just won't feel bored at all! Before heading to zouk, i alrdy damn freaking tired as i dunno wad went wrong with stomach went to the loo for 3 or 4 times! But i like to go toilet cuz it detox my entire body & i can lose weight! =)

kelvin is nicole's cute guy! haha :) he only 20 but look like 25 opps! :P

Nicole & me fav drink = Extreme TT!!! simply like the peppermint taste

then laura came around 12 plus...

me love cherries sooo much tat i always nv failed to request to have at least 1 in my mouth!! LOL.

Heineken model, Nicole Tay.

another round of lambo, ak47 & long island tea...still nt sobe yet!

our fav aunty in the club!!! She's 60 plus & still never failed to do her job well provide us with tissue to wide our hands & open the door for us! sooo sweet & i shall request zouk's management to reward her the best employee of the year!

love her & respect her! :)

too engross with my peach martini!

lastly met dominic at the member's loo was trying to be funny with his BIG spect! OMG i look sooo fugly!! MUahahahaha but is funny & i always like silly action.

my cute nicole! she look damn cute with this spect on!

all rights tat's all for now :)

partyinggg again...

2008-10-03T01:50:00.007+08:00

i was freaking HILARIOUS last nite!!! I just simply hack care attitude! i gurantee u cmf laugh out LOUD!

Nicole Tay wrote at 5:48pm haah when i thk about that scene haha i just keep laughing.. haha and miko feed me haha with hotdog she brought two! she even scold dominic haha as he wan her pay for his bun LOL i really miss her already la! only nvr see for one day. LOL should i bring camera tomo again?

Nicole Tay wrote at 3:24pm haha u are so CUTE! i love u to the core! haha laura loves partying with us LOL! cant teach her bad haha. Wall-to-Wall - Write on Nicole's Wall

Laura Huang wrote at 1:02pm i ♥ hotdogs & buns and you are HILARIOUSLY funny!i am beginning to love you both more.PLEASE make me LAUGH!!WHAHHAHAHA Wall-to-Wall - Write on Laura's Wall

Is real crazy man! Can u imagine a sober gal verbally scolded all the Vulgarities !@#$%^ yes, i knw is sooooo un-glam however i just simply dun give it a damn! I still manage to go home myself. heez :D

i'm officially single however i dun want to be avaliable! yes, *full-stop* i just wanna enjoyed my life yay have fun & i m sick of those memories that i dun wish to recall back & happen in my life again...all right i too lazy & now alrdy 2.10am!! i still insomniainggg FREAK! i hate myself for those ppl who can able to fall aslp easily BUT dun have the time to slp..And i the opp ones hate it!!!! siao char boh!. shit lah! dunno wad's wrong with me?! all right tmr gg zoukingg so dun think so much & 123 i'll try to close my eyes & zzzzzzzzzzz....

i can't wait to meet my nicole & laura!! sooooo excited.

here's the pics....credit to nicole!

First stop @ attica den to phuture...

met some chile girls over there they are hot & spicy! lol.

2008-09-30T08:54:00.003+08:00

Hi all, i back to my blog. I think i had move on and i love the way i am right now. Morning was in the train & i get the free copy of my paper. Happened to read this article abt companionship and happiness in a relationship which i totally agreed & seems to be true. So wanna blog abt it...

The phrase goes like " sometimes, u may be too eager to get the other person to accept u that u end up doing things just to please him or her."

If you're forcing yourself to do something that's not you, then there's no point because u're projecting a false image to the other person.

Me & nicole decided to change our lifestyle & is good that we should! We realised if u dun change now after few years down the road u'll definitely sick of it & meaningless too. Woohoo... this thurs i having badminton with my colleagues & is actually organise by my company. Great, and is been one of my fav sport too!!

All right back to work....i shall con't once i got all the pics!!

2008-09-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just think of the past...the things i did somehow i regretted somehow i really hate. I wonder why keep wondering..i think i wont be blogging at the moment. Ppl always say think positive but i dun really think i can at times and after so many incidents i really very sick and tired & wanna said sorry. The scars is there no matter how hard i try to avoid and the memories is still there. I have a brain i have a mind and i am extreme emotional.

The only way is to treat myself better & love myself in order to love someone again...

compromise & trust...yay i had break tat...

smtimes really wish i could leave here forever...

i miss my dad again........

2008-09-10T21:44:00.003+08:00

i really like this song and i think it really talk abt hw i express my love to someone... because i'm a girl. I don't believe there is such incident will happen to me but if so i will definitely accept him, love him & take care of him forever... i know this won't be in realistic but somehow just enjoyed this touching sad mtv....i cried whenever i watched & i think of the past...

hate this feeling

& all is just a dream that i dunno how to appreciate..

2008-09-10T12:39:00.006+08:00

i still recovering and lesson learned. Thks all my dear frens around for advices & my listening ear. I miss my dad too. Great news! i been selected out of 163 contestant the 10 finalist for the "a new you" contest host at suntec city.

So if u happen to passby on the 20th sept, sat pls come support me!

Thk u:)

this is the trasformation of the new look under elegant categories.

It was fun & i enjoyed the whole contest last sun... they give u voc & u just shop around within the time & budget.

all right forcus & i wanna tk up yoga class & go train for my 10km marathon...lol! i think some ppl think tat i crazy cos even 2.4km is damn tedious alrdy. Nah i just wanna a experience so no harm trying and i think it will increase my self-motivation.

2008-09-09T00:10:00.002+08:00

Oh god damn it man! i admit i a real-life zombie man! Freak me!! i only slept for 2 hrs & is amazing i can still able to wake up & go to work! I dunno wad's wrong with me i dun wan insomiaaa pls get lost i want my beauty slp! Random thoughts in my mind keep flashing back even my colleagues can sense it...they are caring & i love working with them.

Actually i went siloso beach resort & cafe del mar and i really love it soooo much.

Thks to mich & nicole for the great offer or else i will be very lonely.

We have alot silly stupid idiotic & annoying stunt man throughout the night! And damn fucking hilarious!!!

will upload the most funniest pic in my life.....

pls stay tune......

i feel like gg aboard & was thinking gg alone to somewhere jus a short trip i dun mind.

I used to it all by myself yeah...it doesn't really matter.

all right i shall wait for the day!

2008-09-07T17:15:00.002+08:00

i start to miss u but i know is too late....

hate this feeling

will make myself busy at all times i can......

sometimes is natural i will numb myself.....

2008-09-06T19:26:00.007+08:00

history repeats perhaps i dunno how to control myself. Once we are frens and to be couple. To u maybe i a part-time clubber jus wanna enjoy night life jus purely drink drank drunk. At least i nv do anything bad behind ur back to flirt around with other guys.

You love each other and that's why you got together in the first place, but you don't really seem to have much in common anymore.. A give and take. You’ve been told you should put aside your own interests to make the relationship work. You have to compromise, right? But when you give up what you love for the sake of the relationship, you end up resenting the person and conclude you don't have anything in common. If you had these differences when you fell in love, chances are it's not about having nothing in common, but not having the connection and intimacy you once had.

They're not blatant lies, but mostly unspoken thoughts and feelings. The intentions behind the lies were to protect myself and my partner from pain. But now, my problems seem overwhelming and i can't talk openly and honestly about them because i've already established a certain pattern of communication.

2008-09-04T23:10:00.005+08:00

I really hate this feeling. Seriously, at my young age i really been through & encountered alot things that i dun wish to happen but still this is my life...i need to overcome it, i need to face it & deal with it why god pls tell me why? Sometimes i really dun understand...ppl always have this phrase that say God is Fair & i simply agreed with it. Ya, why some ppl are born to be rich? why some ppl have a wonderful relationship? why some ppl have a happy marriage & with beautiful kids? Yay this is life man!

Whenever i think of the past it makes me feel so weak feel like hiding myself and just dun feel like facing the fact of reality. I'm have a hard life all the while but compared to some ppl i already consider fortunate enough as i still able to stay healthy and most impt the love & concern from my love ones... I dun wish to ask for more but smtimes the feeling i have now is totally different in the past i have. I tell myself to make it better but somehow it stops there....

i wan to feel love again......

am i making it worse or is fated to be?

2008-08-13T22:08:00.006+08:00

Been busy with work recntly lot's of stuff to deal with but still i love working yes u knw why becos i have nice working fren around & nice superior and that's the main reason to motivate myself to work. *cross my finger* and really hope nothing happened to me in near future...

Below are some of my recent buys and bought some facial stuff for my poor skin due to all the late nites so i tell myself need to spend more time to do my DIY facial.

Went to cotton-on & i find that their products are very reasonable & gd quality as well. Is a australia brand & i heard alot australians love this brand too.

i like this comfy bedroom slipper is really nice to wear summore is dirt cheap!

the short too! so comfortable :)

i like their whitening cleanser is really silky clean. Tried the collagen mask dun find it produce result. For the eye patch still consider not bad e nxt day find my eye bag reduce. I like their nail polish is easy to apply & the main point it cost only $2.50!

Lastly i proud to show off my lovely pumpkin! Recently she got some infection on her left foot poor she lucky went to see vet and found is some gems maybe due to the grass. Can't blame her she still miss the cats at my block downstair.

2008-08-12T22:06:00.019+08:00

phuture here i come....

While waiting for my darlings nicole & donica to reach i was alone after getting the chomp & happened to saw this guy so familar hey hey is Ray! Haha glad to bump on him or else i was a lonely freak.

This is the very first time that i club with so many ppl around. 7 gals & 7 guys!! woohoo & damn happening man! We ordered martel+trays of apple shooters+extreme TT+long island+e33.

really madness!

here come the extreme TT recommended by nicole & i tell u even Jane agreed with me! one word = shiok!

pls looked at their expression carefully! wenyong looked so timid & stupid jimmy still can laughed so happily...The fact tat Mich is telling some ghost stories to them. That nite we really exchange alot stories & really make us almost freak out!

Ray, the guy who never failed to make us laugh!

The 3D girls in the club!

with uncle ben! U know why becos a lady was calling from his back shouted : Oei uncle uncle erm aunty!!!!WAhahahhaha

meet the gladiators gals!

again ray's expression always make me LOL! i guess someone in the club really make him SHOCKED!

another funny pic of RAY! Muahahaha

i really love the girls around & i wanna go club again soon!

busy & tiring

2008-08-02T13:43:00.006+08:00

Is been a week since i start my new work...yeah overall still enjoyed working & finally get to know a colleague who able to click with me very well. That's a gd star ^_^

Still learning my diving lesson as usual & this few lesson keep kena scolded by the instructor as i keep release my clutch so fast & he commented tat i look so tired compared to the day time yay think due to my work really make me so shag . So sickening felt so demoralise & think this blur blur dunno can make it to the final round anot...hopefully i can get my license soon...

Later gonna meet up with donica! yeah finally get to see since like 6mths ago! After the last meet up with my ex classmates gathering. Woohoo gonna club & catch with her & nicole will be gg too! Definitely will enjoy with u gals later :) Is our ladies nite yeah!!

I hope Mr bf will understand that. I know u disagree tonite but i already make a promise to meet up with my gf & had told u early on so hope u understand afterall and i will take care myself well & text u whenever i can. I wanna make u feel secure & giving you all the trust . I wish u can score well for ur exam :)